name that feeling

I’m sat here this evening* contemplating a 13 page report, which could be summed up rather more succinctly as: Small Girl is dyslexic and needs help.


Things I might be feeling right now:


-huge sadness, because this won’t go away and I can’t fix it for her


-a smidgeon of relief (that I haven’t been imagining it all, and that I finally listened- really listened- to what she was telling me)


-the usual bucketload of maternal guilt (that I didn’t listen better/ do something sooner when she was so miserable)


-overwhelmed (at the amount of battles I’m going to have to fight on her behalf over the next eight years of school)




*To be strictly accurate, I’ve been contemplating it all weekend. This was possibly not a good use of summer holidays, but I needed to get my head around it. I’m planning to spend what’s left of the summer on a Scottish island, drinking gin. That works for me. Apologies if you’re one of the people I’ve been ignoring lately.  I’ll be ready to talk about this soon…



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5 responses to “name that feeling

  1. Hugs. If she gets the right sort of help it should get easier for her. If T is not too old for small girl to relate too I’m sure she would talk to her.

  2. katherinea

    Oh guilt! Why is there so much of the bloody stuff? Hopefully now it’s idenitifed etc. etc., but yeah, you’ll have to fight for the help and that pisses me off. Have a hug and some gin.

  3. dawn

    Been through all those feelings – at least you now know and can get some help for her, even if it’s only moral support that It’s Not Her Fault (or yours). So many famous people were/are dyslexic including Richard Branson, Benjamin Zephaniah, Roald Dahl, Steve Jobs and I just found out that Prince Harry is too. huge hugs for both of you xx

  4. My eldest granddaughter is dyslexic – finally diagnosed and acknowledged when going into 4th grade. She ended up at a wonderful school just for children with dyslexia, founded by a man who was dyslexic and understood what it means. In many ways this school was a very traditional one with drill and memorization and dictation, but the students were told why they learned the way they did and why the drill helped. (I remember my GD telling her brother he needed to write his spelling words out by hand and to write each misspelled words three times so it would be imprinted on his memory). My granddaughter is now 15 and is going to a private girls school. She still has to struggle with some areas of school but she is doing fine. I think one of the most valuable lessons taught at her previous school was that he student were not dumb, they were all bright. They would probably have to study harder than others to get their lessons but they could do it – if they needed extra help or trying other methods, whatever, they would receive help. They all had gifts and were helped to develop their gifts, be it sports, art, music, theatre, crafts or academics. This is my wish for your daughter – and for you, strength to stand up and be her advocate. Blessings and prayers for both.


  5. Mrs Redboots

    My elder nephew is badly dyslexic,as, I believe, is his mother. And yes, he did struggle at school, but he went to college and has a job and is rapidly becoming a responsible (?) member of society.

    Do find out what help there is available in your area; there might be a secondary school with a specialist unit when the time comes, that sort of thing.

    I won’t say “Don’t feel guilty” – you will, anyway, because parenthood is Like That. But have some chocolate.

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